My How Being a Dad Changes You

Before I became a dad I would have the song of the last thing I heard in my truck playing in my head all day... Now that I am a dad, I now have the last song that I heard on sesame street playing in my head.




Oh yeah I love my son so much that I am gonna endure 2 hours of craziness this weekend at Sesame Street Live "Elmo Grows Up" at the Nokia Center in Grapevine. Sure beats a Dave Matthews concert! Needless to say Connor definitely DOES NOT hate Elmo.

What a way to end a dry spell.

What a way to end a dry spell of blogging but by filling out one of those notorious "tell everyone about yourself" lists. But I will do it because I love my wife and she asked me to.

• I know... that I dont know everything.
  
• I believe...that what is most important in life is not always reflected by the way we live.
  
• I fought... my wife over filling out this thing.
  
• I am angered... about being angry
  
• I love...my Lord and family.
  
• I need... more sleep.
  
• I take...others burdens.
  
• I hear...what I think I hear
  
• I drink...of the living cup.
  
• I hate... people who hate.
  
• I use... video games too much.
  
• I want... to not to want.
  
• I like...to play golf, video games, and be with my family
  
• I feel... blah today
  
• I wear... whats is clean
  
• I left... my truck unlocked
  
• I do... what I can when I can
  
• I hope... that there is good in everyone
  
• I dream... about what life would be like if everyone listened to God
  
• I drive... to chillax
  
• I listen... to my wife eventhough she might not think I do
  
• I type... sporadically
  
• I think… random thoughts a lot
  
• I need...to organize myself
  
• I wish... to not want to wish
  
• I am... whoever you say I am... if I wasn't then why would you say I am
  
• I regret... not giving my full effort
  
• I care... whats important
  
• I should... be thankful everyday
  
• I am... just a man... simple yet complex
  
• I said.... I didnt want to fill this thing out
  
• I wonder... if Connor will ever talk
  
• I changed... Connors nasty diaper just now
  
• I cry... when the diaper is too much too handle
  
• I lose... my keys
  
• I leave... light off in my office when I am in there (dislike fluorescent lights... they will turn us into zombies eventually)
  
• I'm going to tag whoever reads this and i guess Rusty
  

Connor's Car

Tonight I am up late, because there have been a lot of things going on that have me stressed out. I am listening to a song by John Mayer call 1983. In which he sings that sometimes he wishes he could go back to 1983 when life seemed so much more simple and fun (he was 6 at the time). That got me to start thinking about how much fun I would have when I was a kid. The simplest things could keep me entertained forever (mainly Legos). I can see that in my son, Connor, his favorite toy is a plastic car that he can ride in. When he goes over to it he sits in, attempts to buckle his seatbelt and then yells for us to push him around. When he finally gets our attention... he grips tight on the steering wheel and starts belly laughing like it is the best thing ever. I sometimes wish that I could remember what it was like to still live a life with no worries. And be able to just enjoy life. I also start to think of how I want my little boy to be able to stay a little boy forever. But as I sit here and write this I now that he like everyone else will have heartbreaks, worries, fears, stuggles and more... that is the package that life has for us.

We moved here to the DFW area about 6 months ago. It has been really hard since we moved to re-establish the "comfort" we had when we were living in San Antonio. I have a few friends in the DFW area but they might as well be in another part of the country because commuting across the DFW area just to visit friends can be quite a trip. Not only that but I have been so busy with work that I have not had any time to feel settled. This next week I am taking some vacation time... hopefully things willl get better. If it weren't for the fact that I have my beautiful and supportive wife as well as my wonderfully awesome son here with me.... I don't know what I would do.

Fantasy Woes

Alright... Week 1 is over and statistically I had good week. My players for the most part did better then expected. However this weeks matchup I was pitted against somebody who for no good reason picked Minnesota's Defence and earned 32 points for their dominance over the Dirty Birds in Atlanta. Who knew that Mike Vick's Dogfitting would effect me. Thanks Mike Vick for that. No Really thanks for destroying my week one. If you look at the pick I scored a total of 93 points making me 4th in points scored but I faced off against the person who finished 1st in points with 136 points. Suck! If I had faced off against any of the other 6 players who scored less then me I would have a 1 on the win column but no. Thanks Mike Vick. Thanks for messing up my fantasy week 1. I will not forget this. Don't expect any warm welcome from me when they let you outta jail. You are on my list.

CRANK DAT SOULJA BOY WITH BARNEY!!!

I never really liked Barney that much but he earns street credit with me now.

Crank That!

IF you want to be cool. You should follow this how to: this song is converting white guys by the dozen from "running man" losers to SOULJA BOY winners.

Connor Hates Elmo... I Think?

I take Fridays off... So I try to spend them doing something with my son, Connor. Today for example we took him to the Dallas World Aquarium. After the aquarium mommy got tired so I decided to sit down with Connor and watch his Sesame Streets that we have TIVOed (God bless the invenor of TIVO). Anyhow his mom always tells me that he LOVES Sesame Street... that is until Elmo comes on. So while his mommy was napping Connor and I watched Sesame Street. He was loving it! Clapping his hands and bouncing up and down... until Elmo's world came on. At that very moment he stopped watching and proceeded to play with blocks. At first I thought maybe his attention just runs out by the time Elmo's World comes on. Wrong. I fast fowarded it to a part with Bert and Ernie and he was back to watching it! So now it was time to try a few more experiments. I decided to wait until about 6PM when he had been playing with toys for a while and had already had dinner. I put on an episode from earlier this week. Immediately he started bouncing up and down clapping his hands. About 15 minutes later Elmo's World comes on and he stops watching. In the name I science I will continue testing my hypothesis and change up the variables (start Elmo first, no Elmo at all, etc). I want to see if it is an attention thing or if Connor is like his daddy and thinks Elmo is incredibly annoying. Long live Bert and Ernie (there is nothing wierd about to heterosexual guys living together all their lives... right?) j/k

Can't Please Everyone

Today has been a stressful one. The issue that I have been dealing concerns our church's student mid-week bible studies. In a perfect world, the congregation of the church that hired me to run their student ministries would let me run the student ministries. When I make a decision about bible studies, I make the decision with a bit of discernment. Meaning I put it to prayer, I talk to people, and then I make a decision. I thought I had made a good decision and most people seem to approve, however right before I am about to turn in for the night I decide to check my email. BIG MISTAKE! Now I am sitting here stressed out because I am starting to feel like I cannot do anything right. I am not gonna go into the details of the email. I just was annoying enough to bother me.

I made the best decision... I am gonna stick to it and thats it. By the way... the decision was to spilt up our High School bible study because of growing numbers. That should be a good problem, right?

God, give me the strength and calm my nerves so that I can continue to do your will.