Tonight I am up late, because there have been a lot of things going on that have me stressed out. I am listening to a song by John Mayer call 1983. In which he sings that sometimes he wishes he could go back to 1983 when life seemed so much more simple and fun (he was 6 at the time). That got me to start thinking about how much fun I would have when I was a kid. The simplest things could keep me entertained forever (mainly Legos). I can see that in my son, Connor, his favorite toy is a plastic car that he can ride in. When he goes over to it he sits in, attempts to buckle his seatbelt and then yells for us to push him around. When he finally gets our attention... he grips tight on the steering wheel and starts belly laughing like it is the best thing ever. I sometimes wish that I could remember what it was like to still live a life with no worries. And be able to just enjoy life. I also start to think of how I want my little boy to be able to stay a little boy forever. But as I sit here and write this I now that he like everyone else will have heartbreaks, worries, fears, stuggles and more... that is the package that life has for us.
We moved here to the DFW area about 6 months ago. It has been really hard since we moved to re-establish the "comfort" we had when we were living in San Antonio. I have a few friends in the DFW area but they might as well be in another part of the country because commuting across the DFW area just to visit friends can be quite a trip. Not only that but I have been so busy with work that I have not had any time to feel settled. This next week I am taking some vacation time... hopefully things willl get better. If it weren't for the fact that I have my beautiful and supportive wife as well as my wonderfully awesome son here with me.... I don't know what I would do.
